Who’s on my side, why am I here?
Being so much younger from all my siblings doesn’t help me at all. My family is just getting worse and worse each day. This fucking family lecture isnt doing shit, it’s making it worse. I’m starting to hate them more and more. I think out of all the kids I would be the one that would not come back and visit unless it’s a holiday. I’ve been hurt waaaay to much to come back. You don’t forget things so easily. Because they were my siblings I let it go, but they made it worse. Yeah I know that I should love my family but if they never showed me love then why keep trying. I pray to God that he will help me patch things up… But it just keeps getting worse so what is that supposed to mean? My mom just said that she’s not siding me, well she was the only one I confided in and now… I have no one. Seriously, what is family now a days because I have no idea what a family is at all.
Anonymous Asked: Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?Nope… i dont really like the beatles sorry.
You beat me down every chance you get…
It’s like we arent even family anymore… Why the hell am I still living here? I just really wanna go home. I’m tired of this shit! I want to be alone… It like he is always mean to me, it doesnt change. I DONT GIVE A FLYING EFF, hes making me more and more depressed. Sometimes I dont wanna come back. I want to go back to my moms house… But they wont let me… :[
Just when I thought everything was getting better… It got worse. I’m tired of lying to everyone that everything is going amazing..
I can’t stand the feeling…
This week is filled with many anger. I haven’t had a day where I can’t keep my anger in… Someone keeps pissing me off every single day. Today, I just couldn’t stand it so I left… Somewhere no one else would know. I don’t want to let anyone know… but thank goodness there is WI-FI! These are the times I just wish I had a boyfriend to tell my problems to. Where he would just comfort me and tell me to just forget about it. Is it weird that I pray for him every night… and I tell God that when the time is right he’ll send one my way… I’ve been praying for this for many years… I just need to stay strong.
“Good things come to those who wait.”
